Who am I kidding? I’m not always happy. Is anyone? Show me one person out there who’s always been happy. See? You can’t. There isn’t anyone out there that’s constantly happy.
Sometimes, when I’m feeling down, I’ll just call my voicemail. It’s best if I have no new messages or any old ones. Then I can just listen.
That lady, the voicemail one, with the nice, calm voice? She seems to know that you can’t always be happy. She doesn’t sound very happy herself. But you can hear a slight smile if you listen. And when you feel like no one cares? She talks all about YOUR new messages. YOUR saved messages. YOUR voicemail. It’s all about you. And she always says that nice little “good-bye” that no one ever says anymore. Now it’s just a “bye”. A “bye” that seems to care less whether it’s good or not. It’s just how you end a conversation that’s lost its interest. But when the voicemail lady says “good-bye”, you might actually feel like it’s going to be a good “bye”. That it’ll be okay. That, in the end, it really will be good.
Now, my cell phone is dead. Literally. It broke. AGAIN. I tried just now calling my mom’s voicemail on her phone, and it wasn’t the same. The lady was detached, not caring about my mom’s voicemails the way my voicemail-lady cares about mine. Her “good-bye” felt rushed, like she had better things to do than wish you well. She had no feeling, no humanity. She was totally robotic.
I hope my phone is fixed soon :-/
*This was supposed to be posted last night.
Heading Home
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It has been a whole year since I've been to Tahoe. It was October of last
year that we left for Portland, intending to move more of our life to the
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8 years ago